emilythestrange

hi

Wed, 05 Nov 2003 13:00:07 GMT

hello 2 evey one just a test

Long time no message

Fri, 24 Oct 2003 02:27:37 GMT

Well i haven't exactly written any thing on lj, but i think people can understand why. Any whozel, i cool, i hope ur all cool. Things are getting better, in my world thank fuck 4 that. As u all no my birthday is in January, and im having a Halloween party so start thinking of great costumes, Halloween theme. Its going to be on the 3rd of January, at .......well u will all get invitations so no need to spill the beans just yet. Its going to be cool theres about all most 100 people coming hopfully, being the holidays and all and there's going to be a dj, and maybe a smoke machine, and the bar will be open so my fellow budies we have to DRINK THE BAR DRY, that is my goal, beer i think is going to be $2 so make my birthday a memerable one. Any who hope ur all cool hope life is treating u cool, im cool so stay cool, heheheheeh TTFN :)

given up happiness

Sun, 21 Sep 2003 08:54:45 GMT

I would just like to say a big thank u to Kate and Luke for Sunday, i can't express how much that helped. I was going to let all the hurt and anger go away and get on with life, so other people can be happy. But no i have had to give up my happiness 4 two people to be happy and its going to take so much time to get happy with out having a doupt in my mind. I am not happy. I should be. People who i thought would never hurt me did, and the pain in my chest hasen't gone away and it won't 4 a long time. I talked to people who have been through the same thing i have, which includes the same person who's done this. But i em far from a selfish person, im a good person and i do not deserve to be treated this way. Like i said i had to give up my happiness for other people to be happy, and if any one htinks im getting over this fast they can step up, cos im not the person to be told "they no what im going through, and it will all be ok" they can go fuck themselves. Evey thing i wanted with a certain person 4 2 years i had to give up for some one else, who in my opion is cearless with thought. Its the truth and it needs to be said. Sunday helped me to see thing clearer. And a speciall mention to K, I LOVE U SOOO MUCH, thank fuck 4 u K with out u i would be in a coffin by now. The lieing is still happining, and i hate it. WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERV THIS. How dare those people make me feel this way. I told everyone i hated fake people and i do beyond words. Thank u to Emma, u are a wonderful person Emma, i appoligise 4 Saturday night, i love u. Thanku 4 ever thing u have done. NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO GIVE UP THRER HAPPINESS, NO ONE. People should think about what there doing and how it would hurt other people, except they allowed them selfs to feel, some thing 4 the other person. Its not fair.

jealousy

Sun, 07 Sep 2003 08:30:41 GMT

I felt like shit last night, due to the fact that i had to baby sit and bon and nick had to hang together with out me untill i had finished, still then i felt left out. Why do people always like my friends better than me. It might sound harsh but thats the way it is right now. I did say sorry but thats not going to hel[p me right now. I whish i can go away and forget eveyone, cos right now i don't need anyone. I m just venting as much as it pains me to say that but i am. Yes fuck yes i was fucking pissed of beyond words that night but there nothing i can do about it. Crying is not going to get me any where. I made up senarios in my head of the two off them and me finding them and being so made i never want to see them agian, so i have a reason to be made at them. Jealousy is a nasty feelling and i hate it. Im so worried that he will want to be with her all the time now, insted of being alone with me. No one lets me talk. He Will always want her with us when we hang. And she will want him to hang with us all the time and soon...........i would have been forgoten again, and would be pused into finding new friends and doing the whole fucked up shit over and over agian. Why can't someone spend time with me alone em that valga, or em i just getting a tast of my own medicain, and this is just kama!

COOL STUFF

Tue, 26 Aug 2003 08:46:26 GMT

Today was a great day, almost as fun as last week, me and nick had lunch at Macas and then had ice cream. We were 5 mins late agian, for the most boringest lesson in the whole intier world. We had to do group work and since danny went home and lauran wasen't there at all me and nick went to the student lounge with Jen. We had the most amazing convosation with jen she has the coolest life well sort off. She's goth and she has pirecings all over her face wich look really good, and quoted me on getting my chin pireced. Any way she's going out with the most popular heavy metal singer in Adelaide (have no idea who), she promotes "JERK", shes meet the "murder dolls" (HELLO), she no's more about heavy metal then any one i have ever meet, and she is soo cool. We talked about roadies, and the life style she has she gets into all the coolest concerts, i want that life man! I worked out want i want to do next year, and all i want is to have a normal job, like in a cd store or some thing and i want to work in town, cos life down here an't goin now were, just to work 9-5 all day meet new people make more friends, just live and then i might start thinking about having a career, not now im only 20 4 fuck sake i think that might have been the problem i wanted a career now and it just too soon, i haven't even been on a plane yet!

Hey mans!

Sun, 24 Aug 2003 06:54:54 GMT

Howide ho fellow lj'ers, hows it hanging? Im incedebly light hearted today. Myself, Boniza Maciza and Emiza Bouniza went to town and had lunch at the pancake kitchen, it was fun it was great and were going to do it more often, hopfully more people will come next time. Then we walked thorough town in the rain which was fun but made emmy even more sick then she was. My car was fucking up, it kept stalling every funkn time i stoped then some times it woulden't even start, eventually it led us to break down in the middle of King Willam road, and be pushed by some very nice men in to a parking lot and wait for the RAA, thanks to bon :) (luv ya), by that time the tempretura had reached FUCKING FREZING, and we waited out side drinking hot chocolate, cappichino and sprite. Then went to the movies to see a great movie caled "Down with love" it was fanfuckintastic, oh and bon and em brought me fllowers cos i was a bit stressed, i was treating to beat the shit out of my car with a big metal thing. We gradually saw the deteriation of Emma's health that day and night, she was so sick, em i hope u ok :)luv ya!. Then after the movies, which we got to by Emma's dad's car, me and bon were board and very much awake, so we danced and walked up the street trying to rember the dances to some very cool Spice Girls songs, while wating for Nickers to show up so we could go get a coffee. Then we can back to my house and sat in his car untill 5:30 talking about stuff, it was great, we had fun.

The week that has past

Wed, 20 Aug 2003 01:57:30 GMT

I decided to rough copy this before i wrote it in here because it was fresh in my mind when i was thinking about it. This morring as i walked the sad and lonely yet inspiring path to a sometimes happpy place, where the brids cheep the grass is fresh and where the little people like to rome,...........yes my fellow humans...... i went to work. As i crossed Bains Rd i looked up to my left,I saw the morring sky and it was absolutely stunning!Like the flames of hell had been kidnapped and flung all over the sky, colours of red and pink danced across the sky as if to say "HA you can't get rid of me that easy,i will concor you all" (evil laugh) In other word it was pretty. Any whozel i finaly worked out how to do icons thanks to a very special person, who every one loves and adores so much it pisses me of sometimes, return of the green eyed monster. No she is a godess, she is my bestest of best friends BONIZA MACIZA, hell yer. The week end was great, thank to everyone just being them selves it was fanfuckentastic! On tuesday i went to TAFE and it was one of the best days i have had for a very long time, me Laura, Sara (yes her) and nick went on a road trip to cutlose, not my type of shop but what the hay, it was great,we were 10 mins late for class. Then in the break Sandra bought 5 bonceing balls and was throwing them around the class, due to the fact that our lectura is a stupid pumkin head, it was sooooo cool it was like i was back in high school only more rebelus. Nick was making me laugh all through the lesson due to the fact that he was making a baby noise, and saying "This is the mummy, this the baby and they hold hands cos there friends" And stering competitions, i won the last time, sandra was very muchly stoned next to me and was ashoring me that she new my secret. Then went home and got in to my comfpys, and was making tea with mum then the phone rings and eventually ends in nick coming around wanting to do "homework" i think he was just board. It was great we talked from 8 to 11:30, it was soo cool, and found a couple of things too! Not about me off coures, it never is!

great day

Tue, 12 Aug 2003 07:37:20 GMT

To day was great! at first i was feeling like shit tired,bolcked up, gross, i can't here any thing out of my left ear (right to u's)just.....generally sick. Any who went to TAFE and was wating 4.......yes u guessed it:) any whozel, he didn't show up and i didn't want to be lat 4 class cos she has a real big spaz, so i go in there and every ones like hey em how are ya and i say like shit......., still wating 4 him to show he didn't. So i thought i would go home cos there's no point staying i feel like shit and there nothing here that would make me feel any better. So a break comes up an told the teach that i was going home, then went down to say by to the others and met someone from my psat and stoped to say hi, then when my back was turned a pinch in my side made me turn around and i faced with this cheerful face saying "hi ya" (yes he saids that) and then told him that i was going home, and well lets just say his reaction to this made me stay. So at lunch we went to colanades and we asked how much the White sripes tickets would be and, went clothes shopping at K-mart, Harris Scafes, Jeans west ect then we had lunch at Maca's and just talked and laughed and joked....it was great. Then went back to the class room 5 mins late, and saw that Gordon had gone home and there was no one sitting next to n.... him, so i moved and spent the whole lesson singing and talking laughing and joking. FUCK EM I GLAD I STAYED! .....HELL YER!:D :)

what the fuck man!

Wed, 06 Aug 2003 06:14:26 GMT

OCHE-WOWA, i thought that saying went out with the mullet, but like the mullet it keeps comin back, erk! let me fill u in........
ME.... decided to go 4 a walk......coming back home along bains RD, just chillen u know cuzen (harry tune in my head u know ...dum dum dum, dum DUM dum dum ect
FUCKER in the car shop......OCHE-WOWA
ME....... (in my head)NO CHANCE
WHAT EVA! its so 8o's yer!

"FUKEN SARA"

Tue, 05 Aug 2003 08:11:25 GMT

FUCK MY ASS I HATE SARA,SHE"S SUCH A KNOB, SHE"S ALWAYS THERE RIGHT BEHIND ME OR HIM ITS SO ANOYING.AND SHE THINK SHE SO GOOD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...........SHE FUCKS ME OFF. OOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWW, that was great i really needed to get that out, she's such a twat! any who i heard some good news today about a certain some one......won't tell who but ill tell the right people at the right time........and talked about stuff that makes all the current behaviour make sense, ooooooo it make sences alot, a bit sad really but i can help, i feel like i'v got a second chance and im not going to wast it this time.......well i hope i don't:( Any whozel, i was thinking about everyone in bed the other night (and before u jump to rude thoughts....PLEASE DON"T FLATTER YOUR SELF, whateva!) any way i thought off Kay, and thought she's special, SPECIAL K, ...." no hesitation no delay u come on just like special k........" yer i rock man, because she's like a drug, u can't say no, she's addictive, yer!

"Nothingless"

Wed, 30 Jul 2003 05:30:36 GMT

I have become shallow, shallow in the way that money has taken over my life and hapiness. How.......i ask you, how did it come to this? Has my life really become that unhappy, boring and.....sad? Why not go for a walk to the shops, insted of driving and claming you have no petreol or better yet no money, to get the petrol. I promised my self back in the day, when i was nieve, lonely and really enjoyed life. That i would never where a dress, never drink or somke (legal & non legal) and never let money take over my life, like i had seen my relatives do so many times. I have to get the meaning back some how. Take a walk to the local shops and really take in your sourndings, because if your not comfterbal with were you live then you never will be comfterbal any were! I need to go to my place, everyone should have a place, some where they can go with no one else, and just be your yourself. But you'll have to prove yourself to things alot bigger than to what you face here and in your life. Because there your problems seem small, agianst the, cliff face, the sky, the mountins and exspecially the ocean. How you do this,is to become less ignorent, and open your mind to the posibility there are worse things then you and your problems and let nature take its course, and hey im not one to talk but alest i want to get it back...........and im going to!

Bullshit

Sun, 27 Jul 2003 12:18:51 GMT

Everything is bull shit why can't people be there 4 you, like you are from them. Its fucked up. Why do people leave other people out its so fucking wrong when they don't ,live that far. Sorry but i don't like saying things about how they think they have a certain somthing when really all they need to do is get of there ass and do it for themselves, where the makers of our own destiny, STOP WINGING AND GET ON WITH IT. " im going to go kill myself now" goog by!have a good life! and don;t wast it!

Space and Time

Wed, 23 Jul 2003 04:52:08 GMT

Hey i haven't updated 4 a while because.......well i atcually don't know, but oh well.Why is it when you are alone and you talk to your self and the best ideas you voice, are the ones no one hears. And when you go to tell someone you can't rember? Weriod!.My picture thing won't work so that's why i haven't used any of them, it sucks. I finally relised part of the reason why i was so depressed these holies, its because i wanted more from our friend ship and took it as a way to get at me, sometimes im so daft. Our whole friendship is based on one word, one word sums up our friendship, "WHAT EVA" we just go with the flow, and thats how i like it, for now anyway. If we hang out cool, we don't thats cool to. I guess the length of the hoiles made me go a bit insane!. Any way my qoat for the week, i was whatching this movie the other day, a sad movie but a great one on the other hand. Bassicly if your an Elijha fan then you should no this, it was a great piece delived by a very mysterious, sexy, new aged sensitive guy we all love today. "BUT REALLY THEY REALLY MEAN A SQUAR, ITS REALLY SPACE, NOT NUMBERS ITS SPACE & ITS PERFECT SPACE, BUT ONLY IN YOUR HEAD COS YOU CAN'T DRAW A PERFECT SQUAR IN THE METRIAL WORLD, BUT IN YOUR MIND U CAN HAVE PERFECT SPACE....YOU KNOW".

something

Tue, 15 Jul 2003 07:14:03 GMT

Well i decide to update my journal 4 2 reasons really, one to not be board and two to see if my icons work this time. Well as many peoole would no i am on hoildays. The other day i went to the doctors and she asked if i needed a sick certificate, i said "
no, im on hoildays" and she replied with "some people have all the luck" BULLSHIT I AM SO FUCKING BOARD ITS UNFUCKINGBELIVEBAL. Wooooo that was great yer i don't mind being on hoildays and sorry to rub it in but there only good if you have something to do. Which might i had, i don't. You know that im actualy avoiding reading Harry so i don't finish it before the hoilies are over, how fucking sad is that!. Even though omyfuckingod! Srius and James sound so fucking hot. Any whozzol, i wish that he would call wont don't they ever call. I don't want to make the first move, i so old fashioned it sucks. And he probably wont call, listen to me im judying my happiness on weather a guy calls me or not, now thats sad. But hes so cool, and he looks a bit like oili!Well im going now i sick of moping around and wondering, im going to do somthing......i don't no what but something!

continuing from before

Wed, 09 Jul 2003 14:37:12 GMT

Well i coulden't really finish what i wanted to say before so i m writing it now, now that the some has gone. So what i was saying before was not much. I've decided to give people an insight of my every day thoughts. What i think about in my confussed head of mine. All the trials and trubulations of the "Emily World". So i beging. I never thought i would read as much as i have done in the last 2 years. I never red when i was youger because it was boring all though now i think mybe it becos i never found the right book or books.I liked picture books expecially the one about the lemon tree and the dead dog that was buried underneth it, that was a great book. Any who, back to my original thought. What im trying to get at is that Harry Potter is a legend, or should i say JK Rowling. The way she dicribes the winter at Hogwarts, make me want to go there even more than i do any way. There is one line in one of the chapters that i just had to read over and over agian, its one of those things that you just say "yer i agree with that" and you think "that sums it up well" and you cant help but to use that line in normal every day convisations or tell some one "hey you konw that line in The Order Of the Phoenix, how cool is that line".Its a line that sums up the book for me and it was kind of a reality for me when i did read it.I've herd it from my close friends and herd it from other people and to see it there staring me in the face it was like JK was admitting to it, in a round about way. This book scares me a bit how can a world in a book be so real and make me want to go there when i now full well thst its not real. "HARRY WAS GREATFUL FOR ANYTHING THAT MIGHT LIGHTEN HIS PRESENT DARKNESS"

WHAT EVA

Wed, 09 Jul 2003 10:43:11 GMT

Why are hoildays so boring, well not boring all the time. In these holidays i have learnt to knit and have read my Harry Potter book and thats about it.

MY Brain

Mon, 07 Jul 2003 09:53:53 GMT

Hello and welcome to my live journal. I was reading some very interesting stuff today after i had put down the "order". It was on "what it means to be Human" they had some pretty cool points and it got me thinking. What does it exactly mean to be a human.
"love has no bondiries.No boundries.No boundries.
only ego places boundries and limitations so that it may not get lost in its own limited realities. So that its limited ideas of self are not destroyed in death.Yet Ego keeps you trapped in illusions and tricks you into death so that you may never know your self. Beyond Human limitations, suffering and imperfections and judgment". Love what the fuck is up with love there are so many differnt types of love, the trouble is trying to find the right ones for you. If life was simple we would only have two emotions, two! thats right two. LOVE & FEAR!. Thats all we need, and the rest of what ever we feel in the most uncpected moments would fall under those catagories. You no when you have a day dream and its so far fetched from reality you don't want to leave, mybe thats a glimps of what could have been or little flash backs of your past life. Or it could just be a really good day dream about Dom & Eligh getting it off in a room wearing nothing but black leather pants and fuking like there's no tomorrow!
"LETS KILL SOMETHING & FUCK LIKE MONKEYS!"

My new cool journal!

Sat, 05 Jul 2003 06:30:59 GMT

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, fuck yer! i don't know what to write. "5" Dane wrote that. This is so cool i now have a live journal. Its so computerish. ok i still don't no what to write so iam going to go now!

Testing, testing, one, two.....

Fri, 04 Jul 2003 13:25:43 GMT

This isnt emily, this is bonniebunny! Emily has an LJ!! Emily has an LJ!!